i feel like i am waking up to a truth, that has just been unfolding to me in the past year.

the truth that we really do need to take better care of our planet. that i, as a person, should take steps in my lifestyle to help this.

sometimes waking up is disruptive.

i have a lot of past assumptions, and ideals that really contradict this new way of thinking.

one of the biggest things, is that i'm worried about what certain people i hole close to me would think. they think that many envrionmentalists go over board, but i don't know with these issues at hand, if there is such a thing as going over board.

but man, i hate this. it's so hard to start really believing in something when you're deep-seeded in doubting the whole thing as a kinda hoax, dismissing it as a joke.

i don't think that individual people are wrong. the people i'm worried about have really, really good hearts, but perhaps have confused politics with ethics.


i'm becoming more of an environmentalist. and i don't know. i wonder how i will be when i return to va. it's easy to believe in such things here in portland. and i really feel i would feel a lot differently if i was only changing just cause the culture i am in is telling me differently.


i'm not a fan of al gore.
i wish the documentary focused more on how we can change the planet, then have shots of him and his politcal career. it sent out the message, wow look at al gore. he is such a hero of a good cause. i think it was awakening documentary at the same time. and i wish that both parties cared equally about the issue of global warming. because i know first hand, that republicans haven't so much.



i want to see a new party rise up....a party that cared about issues that God cares about....
it could be called the pro-life party, adding on to the meaning of pro-life as just matters of letting babies live, and extending the pro-life attitude further...some important values of it might be...
-educational benefits to all who desire for it (even people who can't afford to go to good colleges)
-a job market that keeps the country's economy running while making room for the millions who are unemployed and welcoming them. encouraging programs that help people get and maintain jobs
-adequate healthcare for all
-the banning of abortion, except in cases of rape,incest,and threat of a mother's life
-promoted love and toleration for all (this means angry marches outside of clinics and slanderous words used towards the "immoral" are not proper ways of effecting change)
-an encouraging campaign for people to give directly to global causes (rather than just giving money to goverments who don't use it to help their people, or giving more money to the American government, out of necessity, rather than out of a loving sacrifice)
-encourage and enable people to make good means of their resources, recycle, and reduce the pollution that big and little companies make
-encourage the use of cars that don't require gasoline (being good stewards of our resources)
-encouraging and enabling small businesses to run, rather than just relying of huge corporations that exploit people's labor in developing countries
- less focus on celebrities in the media, and more focus on issues outside of consumer-material ideals
-give to non-prof organizations that truly do show that they help people
-use of ethics in politics, rather than politics driven on greed and image

there's probably a lot more to this dream party, but i'm ignorant on a whole lot of issues. anyways, this is just a list of ideals. but i really do think that most christians or morally ethic people i know have become apathetic to politics because of the extremism in parties. so, maybe it's time for a moderate party that can approach humanistic issues in practical ways i don't even know about, cause i'm politically dumb.