i played the game

i am coming to hate religion more each day.

and i see my need for the cross getting bigger each day.

nothing is happening though. i see my need, but i'm just reduced to despair or apathy.

i see the religious through this acting in form. i know it's just a game. i've been there. i played the game.

as i'm hating religion more, i see how much I need Christ as my life.

but I can't grasp it. the despair and apathy entangle into a web which I'm caught in.

Lord, please fetch me out. And cast out my religiosity. Because I know there is nothing good I can do- no matter how much i attend church, or how many missions i go on- there is nothing I can do on my own to get out of this web.